today was an awful day....I can take if people say things about me...it's not like the ones who do in it in a mean way I love.


but today people I love did it. my mom and little sister. 


these are people I love and would never have thought would say such mean things about me.


I feel so alone. I would never say the things they said about me to them secretly to myself or to someone.


but they said these things to each other in "confidence"......I just don't feel I can trust them like I did.


This makes me very sad. But now I have to act as if it doesn't bother me. Or they will think that I am being a so called brat. I have to act as if the things they have said don't bother me. 


I will try.

School

I've been enjoying school for the most part.

A few of my friends and I are going to San Fran to see A Christmas Carol. I'm super excited , It will be like my first COLLEGE ADVENTURE.

I've never been to SAN FRANCISCO so I'm excited...ah. and the guy I like is going how fun will that be. ahhh.

omg

I think my mom is obsessed with the number of rainbows popping up in the sky. haha

I realize

I can get really emotional about certain thing in my life. BLEHK

First University Quarter

So the University I go to has quarters. I'm not exactly sure if its like this at all schools. But I am really excited and I want to transfer hopefully to a school that is out of state. I just want to travel and even if its still inside the country thats fine with me.

But today was the last day of my remedial courses that will allow me to be in "NORMAL" classes.
I plan on posting pictures with my blogs soon and will keep everything updated for now on.

-Andrea

Well I kind of.

I've been think a lot of what I wanted to do with this blog page. I have a feeling I want to make it a bit more legit. I I I. I want things to happen for it. I want to write things I wouldn't normally say. I want to go place in life. So I guess I'll start with what I want from myself.


Since I was about 12 I have known that I want to be an actress. I never told anyone this. I only started actually doing plays in my junior year of high school. So when I applied to University with my major being Theatre, I was a bit afraid of what my mom would say. This is my summer before my freshman year at University. I can't wait for what lies ahead for me there. I know I am not a good actress now but I plan on being one. I study myself in the mirror. I read about acting and try to get in tune with what lies ahead of me. I want this and I finally have the courage to tell people that thats what I want to do. This is what I want to be.


I usually don't talk about myself. Its probably one of the last thing I like to do. But here on my blog I hope I can have a voice that people respond to,

So whoever is reading this (at least I hope someone reads this) 
be blog friends

True Blood..................oh yeah

I love the show True Blood. As I'm typing I'm watching it. Love it sooooooo much.
I also love the books currently on Dead in the Family. That is all


Love Andrea hahah

Great Read

I have just finished two books and totally recommend anyone and everyone to read them

1. Th1rteen R3asons Why By Jay Asher
2.  The Vast Fields of Ordinary By Nick Burd

These are two amazing  books and can be found on line the are absolutely amazing.

The first one is kind freaky and the second is so sentimental. Everyone should read them.I got mine at my local library.

Avatar: The Last Airbender

So I am super excited to see Aang, Sokka, and Katara in life form. I don't usually like cartoons of this nature. But when I started watching Avatar I was completely amazed. So who else is excited. I know I certainly am.

I'm watching the cartoon as I type. Episode Appa's Lost Days.. So sad for Appa I love the way they made him look in the movie trailer....goosebumps. haha

Demons or Crazy...

Okay so while eating lunch. My sister the Monster/Crazy tells me that when she was in the hospital that a man/demon/guardian angel/spirit came to her and said that "they" where going to take my nephew (her son) away.

That's just plain crazy. She said they came to him one night and he started to cry. I said thats funny cause when I was watching him and his crib was in my room nothing happened explain that. She was like "well they don't come to him anymore". I'm like "why".

SHE DOESN'T ANSWER. Jeeez it all a fabrication in her mind so that she has excuse for being crazy. She's 32 years old and she doesn't want to move out of my parents house. She has three kids and a long time boyfriend/spouse. She's using this as an excuse so that she doesn't have to deal with the real world. I'm only 18. I start college this year and I'm living in the dorms. All paid for. Why doesn't she realize this and get a life.

I know many people are going to say wow thats harsh you should support her in her time of need. Well let me tell you. My mom has been trying to help her since she was 17 and she doesn't want it. I tried to help her when I finally knew what her problem was but she doesn't want it. I mean her spouse doesn't even want to deal with it and I don't want my nephew and neices to grow up in an unsafe enviroment.

Till next time.
Andrea

I Have So Much To Say

I also enjoy make up if I could have a limitless supply of money just for make up I would be happy. Things that I'm really wanting right now is a couple of items from MAC's new collection To The Beach.

I also enjoy watching tutorials and beauty "gurus" on youtube. I was going to start doing tutorials and hauls and reviews. But lifes to hectic right now. I would also like to save to buy a camera to do that.

Makeup = Life Outside Beauty.

Am I right or wrong. Most people would. Just saying

Lets Get Started

I read my last post and though it is true in ever sense. I still am sad to say it is. But soon I'll be in college dorm and at peace with myself for once.

I'm reading the Charlaine Harris Sookie Stackhouse novels. I'm currently on book 7. I read pretty fasted. But I read at a pace that allows me to enjoy and experience books that I read. I love reading. It brings you to another world and allows people to be someone else if just for a minute. I collect books. I have an overflowing shelf of books. I'd like to be a writer but I just don't think I'd succeed and that kind of frightens me.

I will hopefully one day put pen to paper. Or fingers to keys. But my goal in life is to be an actress. Its just like reading. Your someone else, if just for a second.

Not So beatiful

My life is not what it seems anymore. Well it was never a place I wanted to be. I have two sisters. One I'll call the monster. The other alone. Alone confided in me and said she sees no point in living anymore. While monster is the one that made her feel that way. Monster is a monster. She abuses alcohol and at time drugs (I suspect) even after my mom asked her to stop.  My mom told me today that she has cancer. I have no idea to deal with that. But Monster said she was going to stop drinking.

A little background into monster shes 32 years old. Has three children. The last of which would probably not be here if it didnt fight for its life to be here. She has the house like an episode of hoarder. Claiming she shouldn't clean it because its my brothers and alones stuff. Did I mention that her boyfriend of ten years lives with us also.

I just want to get out of this place with my mom, alone, and my brother.

My skizo uncle lives here as well. He needs to get his own place as well.

If my mom ever dies of cancer I just want her to have good last years of life not bad.

I wish I had money so I could buy her a house. One thats clean. One that she doesnt have to deal with the bad.

-andrea

Great Britain

I have a Youtube vlog/blob/beautish channel. yeah www.youtube.com/missduh101 you can see my videos there.

I also have really exciting news.

For someone who's only been to Arizona and California going to another country is quite exciting. So in October my mom asked me if I'd like to go with her to Great Britain. This will be the first time I've ever been on an airplane. Im super excited and I have always wanted to go there. I leave on Friday the 19th and come back on the 28th. I'll post pictures of my "adventures" when I get back.

So until next time.
Have FUN

Wow

I haven't written in awhile. My apologies. I just saw Alice in Wonderland and I absolutely loved it. Tim Burton is so amazing. Ahhhh.

I've bought a few things and will do an updated beauty-ish blog tomorrow


Have a great weekend . :)

Youtube

So I am starting a Youtube Beauty-ish related channel. On the channel I plan to do reviews, hauls and well bloggy stuff. I have alot of ideas and would love anyones opinion,questions,suggestion, or any feed back for that matter. Im super excited to start this. :) yaha

you can find any of my videos at www.youtube.com/missduh101

go subscribe :)!!

many thanks

Starter

So I'd like to explain exactly why I created this blog. Its to review item I've boughten and things that I like or dislike. So hear it goes.

Ok so today I bought a couple of OPI nail lacquer's and just wanted to say...well stuff about them.

So the one I got are

Lincoln Park at Midnight

Absolutely Alice and Thanks So Muchness.

The last two are from the Alice in Wonderland Collection.. :)

They didn't have Mad As A Hatter or Off with her red! :(

So Lincoln Park At Midnight is such a pretty dark eggplant color..... I like it :)

Now Absolutely Alice I wouldn't recommend wearing this without another nail polish underneath as a base. The color is a very pretty sky blue with gold and silver specs/sparkles/glitter...well maybe not glitter.

And last but not least Off With Her Red. Its a dark cherry red. Which can only be described as when dry as metallic-y.

I love all my purchases and I'll soon put picture with my post...

Until next time.....

*Discloser-I was not sent any items for free. I am not affiliated with any of the companies mentioned. I am not being compensated for this blog. I paid for all products with my own money. This is my honest opinion. :)