today was an awful day....I can take if people say things about me...it's not like the ones who do in it in a mean way I love.


but today people I love did it. my mom and little sister. 


these are people I love and would never have thought would say such mean things about me.


I feel so alone. I would never say the things they said about me to them secretly to myself or to someone.


but they said these things to each other in "confidence"......I just don't feel I can trust them like I did.


This makes me very sad. But now I have to act as if it doesn't bother me. Or they will think that I am being a so called brat. I have to act as if the things they have said don't bother me. 


I will try.

School

I've been enjoying school for the most part.

A few of my friends and I are going to San Fran to see A Christmas Carol. I'm super excited , It will be like my first COLLEGE ADVENTURE.

I've never been to SAN FRANCISCO so I'm excited...ah. and the guy I like is going how fun will that be. ahhh.